My best friend would have turned 20 today. We would have celebrated this together. We would have done a lot of things. But we only had 10 years to be together.
"We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
My cousin Paula died of a brain tumor when she was 10 years of age. Since then I have thought about all we would have done together and now being older it hits me everyday that she can't be there for me when I need her and that she isn't a phone call away. As I pack my things for home I think of how exciting it would have been for both of us to come home from college and share all our wonderful stories together. Of how we had to stay up late and study in the library and what we were planning to do that weekend. We could escape the boring adult conversations and drive away and do whatever we wanted. We could share good reads or discuss our recent purchases at the mall. We could lay out at the pool together and watch her younger sisters. We could discuss our crazy Italian family through facebook and video chat each other while enjoying late night snacks.
But I lost her and I will never be able to do these things with her. She won't be able to be in my wedding or see her sisters take their first joyride. I miss her everyday and all I can do is ask, "why?" I love you Paula so much and I wish I could call you right now so you could make me happy. I need you more than ever.
"The guardian angels of life fly so high as to be beyond our sight, but they are always looking down upon us. "
And I just wish I would have had more time with you. Time where you could have grown up to be a wonderful girl that I know you would be. You are my angel and I love you. But I miss you and I want you here with me.
"I'll love you forever, I'll love you for always, As long as I'm living, My angel you'll be."
I'll never forget you.
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